i'd never been to temple square at christmas. it was awesome!
Friday, January 22, 2010
Saturday, January 16, 2010
College: Round three
My first two weeks back in Rexburg have been GREAT! I'm the first counselor in the Secret Society (or the Relief Society, as it is more commonly known) and I have awesome roommates. My classes are interesting, but I am VERY VERY busy with writing papers and service projects and interviews and observing and preparing to student teach preschoolers and field trips and blah blah blah...but I'm having fun.
I'm taking another dance class this semester and I LOVE it! :) It's called ballroom technique 1 and it's my first silver level class. We're doing 3 dances this semester-- the rhumba, the cha cha, and the viennese waltz. We're starting out with the cha cha, witch I love, so I'm happy. I've never danced the other two styles but I can't wait to learn! One weird thing about this class is that it's the first dance class I've taken where I have to learn both the boy's and girl's part, which is still a little confusing (especially when I'm dancing the boy's part and a boy is dancing the girl's part!) but I'm getting the hang of it. It requires a lot of practice outside of class and (luckily) one of the 8 guys from my class (of 30 people total) asked me to be his practice partner. His name is Anthony (get those ideas out of your head. we're just dance partners) and he is teaching me to lead better. The other night as we were practicing in our classroom, a night dance class came in (it was a social dance class. very VERY basic) and before their class started they were watching us and kept telling us how good we were (really, we're not THAT good) and asking us to do certain moves over and over again and it was just really fun to be admired like that:)
It's a long weekend so I'm REALLY procrastinating my homework. Which is why I'm blogging right now. I'll get around to it though:)
I'm just happy to be back in the Burg, even though it's cold and slippery everywhere :P I've made it my goal to be more social this semester than I was last year and so far that's going really well! I've made a lot of new friends and keep making more every day.
That's the end
For now, at least
I'm taking another dance class this semester and I LOVE it! :) It's called ballroom technique 1 and it's my first silver level class. We're doing 3 dances this semester-- the rhumba, the cha cha, and the viennese waltz. We're starting out with the cha cha, witch I love, so I'm happy. I've never danced the other two styles but I can't wait to learn! One weird thing about this class is that it's the first dance class I've taken where I have to learn both the boy's and girl's part, which is still a little confusing (especially when I'm dancing the boy's part and a boy is dancing the girl's part!) but I'm getting the hang of it. It requires a lot of practice outside of class and (luckily) one of the 8 guys from my class (of 30 people total) asked me to be his practice partner. His name is Anthony (get those ideas out of your head. we're just dance partners) and he is teaching me to lead better. The other night as we were practicing in our classroom, a night dance class came in (it was a social dance class. very VERY basic) and before their class started they were watching us and kept telling us how good we were (really, we're not THAT good) and asking us to do certain moves over and over again and it was just really fun to be admired like that:)
It's a long weekend so I'm REALLY procrastinating my homework. Which is why I'm blogging right now. I'll get around to it though:)
I'm just happy to be back in the Burg, even though it's cold and slippery everywhere :P I've made it my goal to be more social this semester than I was last year and so far that's going really well! I've made a lot of new friends and keep making more every day.
That's the end
For now, at least
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Maawige
In young woman's when they talk about dating, they never tell you that it's scary when you're old enough to date people who want to get married. There should be a lesson on that.
I was recently made the choice to not get married at this point in time and was told that I have a skewed idea of what love is and that I'm going to be disappointed in life. I don't think I do, but it's still a hard thing to hear. I mean, I don't think I do, but what if I do?
I'm going to be candid now. I broke up with the most awesome guy I've ever known. The perfect match for me. Take me, turn me into a boy who can play the guitar, is good at every sport, can drive a stick shift, and is a lot nicer, and there you have him. And to top it off, he was my best friend. Best. I didn't break up with him because getting married felt wrong, it just didn't feel so right.
I know it's silly since I'm still so young, but I'm afraid of not ever finding someone as good as him, who will love me as much. He set the bar so high and it's hard to imagine someone will be able to reach it. Plus I just miss him a lot. I've had to rely on the Lord so much these past few days, for the peace of heart and strength it's taken me to not start crying in random places. The middle of class, for instance. As hard as its been--as it still is--I just keep telling myself that the Lord knows what's going on, and that He has a plan for me.
"but if by a still, small voice he calls to paths that I do not know, I'll answer "dear Lord, with my hand in thine, I'll go where you want me to go"
I was recently made the choice to not get married at this point in time and was told that I have a skewed idea of what love is and that I'm going to be disappointed in life. I don't think I do, but it's still a hard thing to hear. I mean, I don't think I do, but what if I do?
I'm going to be candid now. I broke up with the most awesome guy I've ever known. The perfect match for me. Take me, turn me into a boy who can play the guitar, is good at every sport, can drive a stick shift, and is a lot nicer, and there you have him. And to top it off, he was my best friend. Best. I didn't break up with him because getting married felt wrong, it just didn't feel so right.
I know it's silly since I'm still so young, but I'm afraid of not ever finding someone as good as him, who will love me as much. He set the bar so high and it's hard to imagine someone will be able to reach it. Plus I just miss him a lot. I've had to rely on the Lord so much these past few days, for the peace of heart and strength it's taken me to not start crying in random places. The middle of class, for instance. As hard as its been--as it still is--I just keep telling myself that the Lord knows what's going on, and that He has a plan for me.
"but if by a still, small voice he calls to paths that I do not know, I'll answer "dear Lord, with my hand in thine, I'll go where you want me to go"
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Sleepless
Well, I'm gonna get out of bed every morning... breathe in and out all day long. Then, after a while I won't have to remind myself to get out of bed every morning and breathe in and out... and, then after a while, I won't have to think about how I had it great and perfect for a while.
Life is hard
Life is hard
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
supplemental to my Christmas card
A Christmas post script, if you will:
at the end of august and also sometime somewhere in the middle of between now and then, I went to Provo to see Brooklyn.
we went to the temple... (not to get married, to do baptisms. Just in case that was unclear)
I read her our favorite love story...
We both tried to fit into the cupboard. Her legs were too long...
...and mine hips were too big.
For the later trip we went to the BYU-TCU football game. Not pretty, but very fun :)
Then I got Brooklyn the most amazing Christmas present known to man! What is it, you ask? Sorry, I can't say. It would blow your mind. Also, it's not Christmas yet!
THE END
I hope you are happy now Brooklyn :)
(sorry it's sideways :\ Turn your head)
at the end of august and also sometime somewhere in the middle of between now and then, I went to Provo to see Brooklyn.
we went to the temple... (not to get married, to do baptisms. Just in case that was unclear)
I read her our favorite love story...
We both tried to fit into the cupboard. Her legs were too long...
...and mine hips were too big.
For the later trip we went to the BYU-TCU football game. Not pretty, but very fun :)
Then I got Brooklyn the most amazing Christmas present known to man! What is it, you ask? Sorry, I can't say. It would blow your mind. Also, it's not Christmas yet!
THE END
I hope you are happy now Brooklyn :)
(sorry it's sideways :\ Turn your head)
Monday, December 21, 2009
Merry Christmas!
Here is a Christmas card from me to you! I'm not sending a card out, but here's a little review of what I've been up to this year. With a lot of pictures. Maybe. I'm not sure what I've going to say yet.
Well, at 11pm Christmas eve (2008) I started packing for college, and at 4:30 am Christmas day, I left home forever for college. We drove to Logan and I cried for about the first 6 hours, but was happy when we got there since I was going to be with my family, who I love :)
At the beginning of January (I think the 4th or 5th?) I got to Rexburg and got all moved in to my apartment. I think the first night was the very hardest for me. For various reasons, none of my roommates were there and I was all alone for the first time. I felt like my parents were abandoning me. I cried for about the first 20 minutes, found the presents they left tucked under my covers, read my scriptures, and fell asleep. After the initial shock, I think I realized that I was ready to start on my new, big adventure.
even though I didn't know any of my roommates prior to this semester, we all got along great! I really lucked out and couldn't have been happier if I had hand picked five other girls to live with.
First semester ended great. I had never been a "straight-A" student in high school, but out of the six classes I took, I ended up with five A's and one B. This was amazing to me and should be to you too :)
Second semester was a little more eventful. I'd been having pretty bad stomach aches for as long as I could remember, but for the 18 months prior to this time they were pretty awful. I'd had upwards of seven doctors in CDA but got nothing better than "you pulled a muscle" and "here's some birth control pills" but nothing conclusive or even a little bit helpful. One day, around June I think, during sacrament meeting I started feeling like my time on earth was limited and I needed someone to read me my last rights. I literally was bawling my eyes out in the middle of church. The way I was holding my side and crying the bishopric thought I might have appendicitis so they gave me a beautiful blessing, promising that I would find out what's wrong and be healed, and my roommates carted me off to the emergency room at madison memorial hospital. They didn't really do anything but give me some monster shot in the behind (Amanda was holding my hand, she could tell you how the nurse rammed that thing into my hip. It was brutal!), took some blood samples, and sent me home, but it didn't really help. This is getting longer than I meant it to, so I'll try to condense the rest. I had to go to the health center on campus to get the results of the blood tests and the doctor there told me he'd like to figure out what's wrong (Hallelujah! A doctor who cares!!). He did a bunch of test and thought I have celiac disease. An endoscopy confirmed it and now I cry every time I go grocery shopping, but I'm getting better at eating gluten free.
To counteract the anemia caused by my celiac disease, I had to have an iron infusion which was the pits. The hospital in rexburg is a joke and something that took four hours took about eight. It took about two hours waiting with a needle in my arm that wasn't actually hooked up to anything. It was actually pretty painful but my wonderful, beautiful roommate Amanda read stories to me and entertained me and shoved smarties in my mouth whenever I started crying.
gross. It looked like they were infusing me with espresso. And it made me throw up the sonic cheeseburger that Amanda and Luke smuggled into my hospital room :)
Well, then second semester ended and, considering that I was in the hospital for half the semester AND taking 18 credits (!!!) I passed with six A's and two B's. I was not expecting that and was very proud of myself!
School ended and I moved to Logan to work at my parent's new car wash. In August one of my biggest dreams came true and I got to be an EFY (Especially for Youth) counselor! I counseled (ha) for one week with my cousin Madi in Ogden. It was different than I expected but SO AMAZING! Such a spiritual high and I got to love "my girls" so SO much! They were all so beautiful and so full of the spirit and I am so blessed that the Lord sent them to me to bless my life.
Me with my girls. We're all being goofy but it's the only one where you can see all of our faces :)
Me and Madi one night at "EFC" (Especially for Counselors. The party we had after the kidlets went home for the night)
Kjarinda, Me, and Katy. We were EFY participants all the way back in 2005 and I hadn't seen either of them since, so it was crazy fun that we all got to be counselors together :)
Me, Sean, And Lauren. We taught FSOY (for the strength of youth) in the same room. We were being cool and put our name tags in our hair
A few weeks later my roommate Kim got married, so Luke and I went to Rexburg for her open house
And...well, nothing too eventful has happened since August. I just work at about 6:30 every morning and then go home and hang out with my mom until it's time to go to sleep. Then repeat. Sometimes I get to hang out just me and Lexi, which I love. I like to think that I'm her favorite aunt, but that may have something to do with the fact that I'm the aunt that lives closest and the only one she sees on a regular basis.
So now I'm getting ready to go back and start round two of college and I can't wait! I'm rooming with Amanda again and one of my good friends from high school, Lizzy. It's going to be so nice to have a church calling and classes and something to keep me busy again. SO that's my year in review.
Merry Christmas, everyone :)
Well, at 11pm Christmas eve (2008) I started packing for college, and at 4:30 am Christmas day, I left home forever for college. We drove to Logan and I cried for about the first 6 hours, but was happy when we got there since I was going to be with my family, who I love :)
At the beginning of January (I think the 4th or 5th?) I got to Rexburg and got all moved in to my apartment. I think the first night was the very hardest for me. For various reasons, none of my roommates were there and I was all alone for the first time. I felt like my parents were abandoning me. I cried for about the first 20 minutes, found the presents they left tucked under my covers, read my scriptures, and fell asleep. After the initial shock, I think I realized that I was ready to start on my new, big adventure.
even though I didn't know any of my roommates prior to this semester, we all got along great! I really lucked out and couldn't have been happier if I had hand picked five other girls to live with.
First semester ended great. I had never been a "straight-A" student in high school, but out of the six classes I took, I ended up with five A's and one B. This was amazing to me and should be to you too :)
Second semester was a little more eventful. I'd been having pretty bad stomach aches for as long as I could remember, but for the 18 months prior to this time they were pretty awful. I'd had upwards of seven doctors in CDA but got nothing better than "you pulled a muscle" and "here's some birth control pills" but nothing conclusive or even a little bit helpful. One day, around June I think, during sacrament meeting I started feeling like my time on earth was limited and I needed someone to read me my last rights. I literally was bawling my eyes out in the middle of church. The way I was holding my side and crying the bishopric thought I might have appendicitis so they gave me a beautiful blessing, promising that I would find out what's wrong and be healed, and my roommates carted me off to the emergency room at madison memorial hospital. They didn't really do anything but give me some monster shot in the behind (Amanda was holding my hand, she could tell you how the nurse rammed that thing into my hip. It was brutal!), took some blood samples, and sent me home, but it didn't really help. This is getting longer than I meant it to, so I'll try to condense the rest. I had to go to the health center on campus to get the results of the blood tests and the doctor there told me he'd like to figure out what's wrong (Hallelujah! A doctor who cares!!). He did a bunch of test and thought I have celiac disease. An endoscopy confirmed it and now I cry every time I go grocery shopping, but I'm getting better at eating gluten free.
To counteract the anemia caused by my celiac disease, I had to have an iron infusion which was the pits. The hospital in rexburg is a joke and something that took four hours took about eight. It took about two hours waiting with a needle in my arm that wasn't actually hooked up to anything. It was actually pretty painful but my wonderful, beautiful roommate Amanda read stories to me and entertained me and shoved smarties in my mouth whenever I started crying.
gross. It looked like they were infusing me with espresso. And it made me throw up the sonic cheeseburger that Amanda and Luke smuggled into my hospital room :)
Well, then second semester ended and, considering that I was in the hospital for half the semester AND taking 18 credits (!!!) I passed with six A's and two B's. I was not expecting that and was very proud of myself!
School ended and I moved to Logan to work at my parent's new car wash. In August one of my biggest dreams came true and I got to be an EFY (Especially for Youth) counselor! I counseled (ha) for one week with my cousin Madi in Ogden. It was different than I expected but SO AMAZING! Such a spiritual high and I got to love "my girls" so SO much! They were all so beautiful and so full of the spirit and I am so blessed that the Lord sent them to me to bless my life.
Me with my girls. We're all being goofy but it's the only one where you can see all of our faces :)
Me and Madi one night at "EFC" (Especially for Counselors. The party we had after the kidlets went home for the night)
Kjarinda, Me, and Katy. We were EFY participants all the way back in 2005 and I hadn't seen either of them since, so it was crazy fun that we all got to be counselors together :)
Me, Sean, And Lauren. We taught FSOY (for the strength of youth) in the same room. We were being cool and put our name tags in our hair
A few weeks later my roommate Kim got married, so Luke and I went to Rexburg for her open house
And...well, nothing too eventful has happened since August. I just work at about 6:30 every morning and then go home and hang out with my mom until it's time to go to sleep. Then repeat. Sometimes I get to hang out just me and Lexi, which I love. I like to think that I'm her favorite aunt, but that may have something to do with the fact that I'm the aunt that lives closest and the only one she sees on a regular basis.
So now I'm getting ready to go back and start round two of college and I can't wait! I'm rooming with Amanda again and one of my good friends from high school, Lizzy. It's going to be so nice to have a church calling and classes and something to keep me busy again. SO that's my year in review.
Merry Christmas, everyone :)
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