Friday, January 22, 2010

temple square pics yo

i'd never been to temple square at christmas. it was awesome!

Saturday, January 16, 2010

College: Round three

My first two weeks back in Rexburg have been GREAT! I'm the first counselor in the Secret Society (or the Relief Society, as it is more commonly known) and I have awesome roommates. My classes are interesting, but I am VERY VERY busy with writing papers and service projects and interviews and observing and preparing to student teach preschoolers and field trips and blah blah blah...but I'm having fun.

I'm taking another dance class this semester and I LOVE it! :) It's called ballroom technique 1 and it's my first silver level class. We're doing 3 dances this semester-- the rhumba, the cha cha, and the viennese waltz. We're starting out with the cha cha, witch I love, so I'm happy. I've never danced the other two styles but I can't wait to learn! One weird thing about this class is that it's the first dance class I've taken where I have to learn both the boy's and girl's part, which is still a little confusing (especially when I'm dancing the boy's part and a boy is dancing the girl's part!) but I'm getting the hang of it. It requires a lot of practice outside of class and (luckily) one of the 8 guys from my class (of 30 people total) asked me to be his practice partner. His name is Anthony (get those ideas out of your head. we're just dance partners) and he is teaching me to lead better. The other night as we were practicing in our classroom, a night dance class came in (it was a social dance class. very VERY basic) and before their class started they were watching us and kept telling us how good we were (really, we're not THAT good) and asking us to do certain moves over and over again and it was just really fun to be admired like that:)

It's a long weekend so I'm REALLY procrastinating my homework. Which is why I'm blogging right now. I'll get around to it though:)

I'm just happy to be back in the Burg, even though it's cold and slippery everywhere :P I've made it my goal to be more social this semester than I was last year and so far that's going really well! I've made a lot of new friends and keep making more every day.
That's the end
For now, at least

Saturday, January 9, 2010


In young woman's when they talk about dating, they never tell you that it's scary when you're old enough to date people who want to get married. There should be a lesson on that.

I was recently made the choice to not get married at this point in time and was told that I have a skewed idea of what love is and that I'm going to be disappointed in life. I don't think I do, but it's still a hard thing to hear. I mean, I don't think I do, but what if I do?

I'm going to be candid now. I broke up with the most awesome guy I've ever known. The perfect match for me. Take me, turn me into a boy who can play the guitar, is good at every sport, can drive a stick shift, and is a lot nicer, and there you have him. And to top it off, he was my best friend. Best. I didn't break up with him because getting married felt wrong, it just didn't feel so right.

I know it's silly since I'm still so young, but I'm afraid of not ever finding someone as good as him, who will love me as much. He set the bar so high and it's hard to imagine someone will be able to reach it. Plus I just miss him a lot. I've had to rely on the Lord so much these past few days, for the peace of heart and strength it's taken me to not start crying in random places. The middle of class, for instance. As hard as its been--as it still is--I just keep telling myself that the Lord knows what's going on, and that He has a plan for me.

"but if by a still, small voice he calls to paths that I do not know, I'll answer "dear Lord, with my hand in thine, I'll go where you want me to go"

Wednesday, January 6, 2010


Well, I'm gonna get out of bed every morning... breathe in and out all day long. Then, after a while I won't have to remind myself to get out of bed every morning and breathe in and out... and, then after a while, I won't have to think about how I had it great and perfect for a while.

Life is hard