answers to prayers

the way I get answers to my prayers is not the way I want to get answers. Most of the time, I don't really even feel like I get an answer. Even when I say, "here is my solution, please help me to know if it's the right thing to do," I feel like the Lord waits for me to actually do that thing, and then He lets me know if it's right or wrong. Sometimes this doesn't even happen for a long time though so...I get frustrated. I like being in control and I like feeling like I have everything under control. 

So with the bajillion and a half options I had for this fall, I decided very VERY last minute to stay in Rexburg. This was around the time my apartment complex manager emailed us all saying she was completely booked for fall AND after registration had already been open for a week (aka all of the classes were taken and registration is a nightmare.) I decided to register for fast grad, meaning I'll be going to school year round from here on out, and will graduate December 2012.

Well, saturday morning I woke up and decided I was going to stay here in the fall. 

On saturday I filed a housing contract on my way out of town and slipped it under the office door. 

On sunday I planned out a hundred different registration scenarios/grad plans.

On monday I camped out in the advising office and did everything short of threatening phsical violence to get someone to meet with me. 

I spent close to five hours going back and forth to different offices, meeting with advisors and getting the proper forms signed. They told me it would be two to four weeks for my fast grad to be approved. A few hours later, I got an email saying it had been approved. I registered for classes and got all of the ones I needed.

On tuseday I got a call from my apartment manager, letting  me know a spot had opened up for me, that I could stay in my same apartment and live with my friends. 

I don't know why or how all of this is working out so well. I have to get a loan, which scares me, but I know I'm making the right choice in staying. I don't know why though.

I had to give up my photography minor, which I love, to have two health science clusters so that I can fulfill all the prerequisites for getting into grad school to study occupational therapy. 

It's going to be a rough year and a half, but I'm proud of myself for getting this all under control. Even though BYUI tried to knock me down, I am fighting back! Knowing that I'm on track to make a difference in peoples' lives is so exciting!